I dunno what to do IVE NEVER BEEN THIS DEPRESSED IN MY ENTIRE LIFE please help me anyone? I beg you Please!!!?

Let it all out, it's ok to cry, listen to 30 Seconds To Mars, their music will give you courage and strength. Remember that you BOTH have your whole lives ahead of you. Why don't you try to see if there's a college near where he's moved to that you could attend in the future. it might be a while before you see each other again, but it is only the end when you decide to give up.